My name is Kina, I’m 19 years old and I love people and things I can’t have. I grew up in New England and went to a boarding school there as well. I’m in love with a girl that makes me forget to eat, sleep, or breathe. But, of course, I can’t have her because of a mistake I made a year ago. This is my atonement. She is my muse and these are my longings. In F.Scott Fitzgerald’s The Great Gatsby Jay Gatsby reaches, trembling, for “a single green light, minute and far away, that might have been the end of a dock.” She is my single green light, and I am left to my thoughts and memories.